I *may* or may not have mostly kept myself together at the airport. I’m not counting tears against my gold star count because tears are ok. I did not at any point in time sob uncontrollably, so that’s a plus. If I recall correctly (as its all kinda a blur) I did kinda ugly cry once for about 3 seconds when j started screaming “don’t go away, daddy! don’t go away!” over and over.
what KILLS me is how oblivious everyone in the airport was to what was going on. daddy j was in his civilian clothes, but he was clean cut and had military issue bags. it was pretty obvious to me (anyway) that he was military and that he was deploying. unless they were waiting to tell him when we weren’t around, no one said thank you to him for what so obviously was a very sad goodbye. thankfully J is going someplace safe so we know we will get him back at the end of the year. are Americans really so freaking clueless about the sacrifices that our Armed Services make everyday?!? someone needs to break it down for them. my husband just left his 1 year old daughter for 1 year. in other words, when he gets back he will have missed HALF of her life. half. so thank you random Colorado Springsians for not thanking my husband or any of the others there for the sacrifices so that you can sleep easy in your beds tonight. misplaced anger? maybe. whatever helps.
With that said, i am so thankful for all the outpouring of support that we’ve gotten today from our friends and family. everyone who has written or texted or called, thank you. it helps me to not feel so lonely. I can’t wait for ma’am to roll in this evening at 445ish to help stave off the case of the nighttime lonelies.
I’ve got a little more cleaning to do before she comes and I’ve got some Toddlers and Tiaras, New Girl, and Private Practice to catch up on. who better to keep me company than miss flatscreen? I mean God must have really played a hand in J’s deployment date because tonight is Thursday night tv night. everyone who knows me KNOWS that Thursday night tv is what I look forward to all week. there are few things I like better than Thursday night tv. you know, besides spending time with my husband which is totally #1. since that’s out of the way, it’s time to take my relationship w/ my tv to the next level.
expecting J to call any minute with news that he safely arrived in DC. 6 hours until his flight oversees.
he JUST texted. leg 1: safe. 🙂